That perfect mind

There is a perfect mindset that makes magick happen. Eventually; the more you practice, the more you come to recognize the state of your mind at what it can manifest for you. I have reached a point where I can recognize when I need a mental shift. I recognize when I need to do a circle, perform a rite, draw the cards....and only act when the need arises.

More importantly, I recognize that mental state where all I have to do is will the event/thing. And yes it happens.

Paying attention to your mind inside and outside the Circle is important. Note the feelings, note the shifts in perception. Note when you are to much into yourself and need to shift outward. Note when you need to change routines, mental routines, physical routines....

And when you are absolutely mentally still.....will the event, and laugh in gratitude that the Universe should make it so easy....that whatever you dream can be manifest.

Blessed Blessed BE

Crossroads Again

Crossroads

I remember this path. I have been here before. Intriguing this is that I have seen this before, different players, but the themes are the same.

Funny, look back at my blogging under Uranus Magick tags... at that time, I used Magick to force a change in direction in my life. At that time though, I knew where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. I had a picture in my mind of what I wanted to experience and all the things I wanted to be rid of.

Okay....so I am rid of them. My life is different. Now that the changing period has settled down, I am back to the crossroads again. Only this time I am not sure of the direction I wish to go. I seem to be in a state of  mental NOWHERE land. I do not know where I want to take my life next. I have basically experienced everything I set my sights on. And one ironic thing I realized is that there are some-things that I thought where the foundation for my happiness that no longer seem relevant.

Like a traditional family unit, like a committed relationship, like a steady job......like learning more about Magick.... yes I said it. I am no longer interested in learning more.

I really have no idea where to go next. I am sort of hanging around like the Hangman......no idea of a direction.

My mind is observing, seeing different scenarios and lifestyles, and while I can fit into many of them; I have no doubt I will get bored and move on eventually.

In my heart though, I just want to be settled, and grounded, yet free.....if that makes any sense at all?

14th May 2023 Update: Learnt from a wise one that the HANGMAN phase is also part of growth. 

Its like the mind is in observation mode. 

The silent observer that looks for the next step. 

We think it feels wrong because we are constantly meant to be doing. But it is a real part of becoming that stronger wiser person with the life you love.

Blessed Be 

Mad-capped Witch - Witchcraft for anxiety

Hello Everyone......I am Celtic Crystal....just thought I'd reintroduce myself. Celtic Crystal is an alter ego which allows me to explore this side of myself without having to face the wrath of family member in this tiny island I live on. Such explorations, if made public, may result in uncomfortable circumstances for me and my family. We are a very superstitious island, and there is the possibility of being rejected, kicked out of schools and losing jobs...as it will be perceived that we practice "obeah" or are in league with Satan.

What is the attraction to me? Well the chance to be exposed to mind expanding concepts and other aspects of esoteric culture...if there is such a thing.

This path has taken my mind, uprooted me from the boring closet reality and given me tools to cope with quite a lot of today's issues. Because of witchcraft, Western mystery traditions and all the other etc's that I delve into; my ability to cope with life's challenges is like a balloon bobbing through the air observing all that goes on around me. 

I still get panic attacks, I still have mood swings, but now I have the tools to recognize them, and to stop them in their tracks!

A very very great coping mechanism this has been.

I must point out though....I get bored very easily, and as soon as I recognize the patterns in a topic, it quickly becomes stale...and I need to move on.

Still on the theme of Witchy-ness I shall begin to explore new types of " Witchy Living" in the realm of home decor and housing...... because my journey is soon to take me to a new abode...and I am going to have to create my space.

Call it research into visual imagery.....

Hope you will continue the journey with me.

I AM - Healer

My analysis of my self brought me to the realization that we are all complex individuals. There are several parts of me that can almost form separate personalities. They do not conflict with each other, but blend and compliment each other.  In different social circumstances I am forced to hide some from particular groups and have become so well skilled that only those who are intimate with me know all of them..... and their names.......and the blogs that keep each side....well sane and present in my complexed personality.

Today though I will deal with the Healer in me.

I come from a long line of Healers. My grandmother...the traditional nurse. Not sure if the hospital knew she was a great herbalist, of the type that had a wild looking backyard. To the outsider, it looked neglected. But too me, each plant she allowed in her space had a medicinal benefit. It was simple...any complaint you had led to a "bush" being picked. Or sometimes she would simply point out one and tell "you pick it, wash it, chew it".

My mother is a Healer.... of the Catholic Church variety. Whatever my feelings about the Path she follows I must admit that people who come to them seem to be eased in their troubles. I sometimes forget that individuals can have different "healing" needs, and are drawn to the type that gives them most comfort. If you believe in the miracles of creation, then healing can be found in anything, because Everything contains Love and Light....so to each his/her method.

For several years I carried a deep seated guilt about my relationships. I seem to attract, or be attracted to persons with a deep soul wound. I seem to move through my life from one relationship to another, with barely a break in between. I have been chastised by family members for this,to the point that they made me feel like a whore (although I could never resolve how having one relationship at a time for several years made me a whore) until a conversation last year with one made me realize something.

Each of them entered my life at a low, confusing point in theirs, and left with a clearer picture of what their purpose and goals were, and were well on their way to personal happiness. Talk about typical Libra personality.....leading people to balance.

I am no longer saddled with guilt about them. I did what I thought was necessary.
Now I can accept that I am a healer....of a different sort maybe.

Now though...its time to heal myself, and I look forward to the process. I can say I have a clear picture of what I want, and the direction I need to have for my happiness. I have tasted those things, however briefly and know where I want to be.
And that is one of the biggest steps to a journey....deciding where you want to go.

Blessed Be.

Work with Hestia

I have been working with Hestia lately as mentioned in a previous blog post. I usually have a goal in mind when I select a goddess, and in this case I wanted to marry both home-making skills and hospitality. I work in bar, and needed to sharpen my ability to keep customers happy. Hestia was the perfect choice, as invoking her would focus my mind on those two goals.

 So its been about four months now with her energies top of mind, and I always mention the results. I finally got a new home, which I am making comfortable for my family. At work I have become meticulous about making things look pleasant and comfortable for patrons of the bar. There is more to be done, but I was certainly driven to do it.

Hestia's energy though; is beholden to no man. 

Here is where I find a conflict. Beholden...in the sense of obligated to no man, yet, cares for all. This is an area where I am watching closely for any elements similar to those energies.

Shall I open the door?

Before me lies a door full of magick and wonder. Just looking on the outside thrills my soul, as if my dharma is to cross its threshold.
That door is so beautiful on the outside, that it pulls my attention and draws me nearer. I can feel when it calls, and as I stand before it, it seems to sense me- and it opens a tiny bit, inviting me in.
We seem to be in sync, me and that door.

My dilemma, being experienced in these sort of "Threshold Crossing Spells" the ones of the Change Your Life variety- is that I know the pain of change. And having gone through a major change I wish to rest emotionally for a while, and just sail through the stuff of life while my heart heals.

My dilemma, is to resist the urge to actually do a "Problem Solving Spell" to assist in making up my mind one way or the other. I have always pushed for and immediate decision, and have never just gone with the flow. I know the effort needed in pushing, but I know not the patience of waiting.

My wish, is to close the door, and hope that I could continue to admire the door from afar, see all the things around it and the door itself become more and more beautiful. See growth around it, see flowers bloom at its step. And then......when I am free to enter and ready to embrace the entirety behind that door, I will step in with a smile on my face and joy in my heart, knowing I am ready for that journey.
Blessed Be.

Can we adopt multiple personalities?

by Ashleigh Burns-Thompson

Do we adopt multiple personalities over the course of a life time?

I am asking this because I find that I no longer connect with the "personality" that wrote this blog.
I read the posts sometimes and feel separate and apart from this person.
Is this person me? Or....did I adopt this persona, as a coping mechanism?
Perhaps now that I no longer need the coping mechanism. I no longer identify with the persona?

Now don't get me wrong, I thoroughly enjoyed learning, exploring and creating magick. It added a spark to my life. Yet, I am no longer interested. Been there done that sort of thing. I even feel like clearing out the books, donating them or giving them away....and adopting a new passion to explore.

The guilt being that I invested so much time and money in them. Would I want to turn to them again? Would I wish to feel the weight of a Magick novel, reference book in my hand? Do I keep them for my daughter?

Is this a phase we all go through? Or is it one that I go through???

Are we really a spirit just putting on a body suit and moving through life?

Do we just have masks to switch around when needed?

Freedom of Spirit

As I trundle along on my broomstick ride I sometimes get into a conversation that seems to interest many many people. 

There is the argument that forming a governing body for this movement labelled Witchcraft, Wicca, New Age practices will give us more political clout among the wider public and allow us to demand rights and equal treatment and respect among our peers.

I can agree that it would. But at what price? It seems to me that the human condition will eventually lead this movement; if organized, into something that is exactly the opposite of what makes it so attractive to people now.

People who are discovering whatever you want to label this movement......feel a sense of spiritual freedom. No one is hanging a book over their heads and telling them" This is what you must believe!"
The journey is very personal, and- as I always maintained- moves along the individual's path in the direction suited for the individual's spiritual development.

Forming an organizing body, will send a dictate, however formal or informal to persons practicing. The dictate may directly or in directly streamline the practice into a one-size-fits all faith. This is exactly what we are trying to remove ourselves from in the other religions.

For the best exploration of this debate, and the advantages and disadvantages of formal training, eclectic training; refer to "The Study of Witchcraft" by Deborah Lipp.

Lets leave this practice as fluid as we discovered it. I believe it is best for our Spiritual Evolution.

Three Tim Burton Movies for 2012

Dark Shadows 2012 Trailer

Tim Burton expands his horizons with a twist on the Dark Shadows Series....its a comedy!!!!
Johnny Depp and Tim Burton always always get me excited.....and two of them in one movie.......(shudders with pleasure).

This year I shall be in blisssssss....as the creative ones are delivering a mighty fine three course meal.....check out the other two Tim Burton Movies below.!

Another Tim Burton mind stretcher:
Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter- Tim Burton Movie.

Just from the trailer I can see that this is Burton's attempt to expand his comfort zone, creatively speaking. I am sure I will enjoy this. I shall sit and eagerly look for signs of his trade mark elements.

Frankenweenie Trailer

Check out this cartoon that Disney (who really is branching out into new and creative projects) has backed. Tim Burton's Frankenweenie has remnants of his early style.

Compare it to one of his first attempts at animation :Tim Burton's Vincent


I think I will be in Heaven this year!

Earth, out of Air

Why can't I make Earth

 Out of Air?

Is it 'cus the fire and

water which is needed

isn't there?

Am I all Air,

Full of fear with no

Ether to compare?

Perhaps I need grails,

Or Stones,

Or gold

with my air......

Where is the formula?

Where is it clear

For one to make Earth,

Earth

Out of Air?

So damned frustrated with the AIR side of me taking over the other elements....aaaaack!

Stranger

Do you really know who I am?
You read my blog, you post on my page.
But do you know me?

Do you know the hurt I feel daily?
Are you there to carry my burdens.
Are you a friend, or was I choosen because of a cool name?
Are you hoping that being acquainted with me validates your place in the world?

Are you there when my pain is great?
Do you know I am homeless?
Do you know, that each day I live with the possibility of not eating tomorrow?
Do you know that each day I live with the pain of not seeing tomorrow,
Of losing my kids,
Of losing my mind?

Do you really know?............................

Ahh....music! Loreena McKennitt

SPIRAL SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT

Our spiritual development is indeed like a Spiral Dance. (Kudos to Starhawk)

An anonymous reader reminded me of something the other day which stopped me in my mental tracks and forced me to start looking inward again. The clutter and confusion I feel may indeed be my mental clutter.

I attempted to do a mental clearing on Sunday gone and realized that there was more work to be done than I thought.  I am surrounded by Toxic thinkers, and cannot remove myself from them for a while. However, I need to offload the junk that I have been carrying and re-focus on my goals and MY moving ahead.

The above drawing shows a type of mental trap that you can get yourself into. The center being your  predominant thoughts and beliefs; your journey moves outward in that spiral motion, continuously re-assessing the same issues associated with the Central Thoughts. Eventually, at some point, you may realize that your Central thoughts are controlling your life, and actually trapping you in a cycle. 

You must shift your  focus elsewhere.

 This changes the vibrational quality of your mind, your Center begins a different vibration. You move from a re-hashing of those issues and begin to focus on something else.

Now this is where is gets tricky. Anxiety, stress and worry about issues related to these Central Thoughts cause us to go  back and forth in that spiral moving outward and inward, but still trying to process that same isues. 

Its a trap we can get into.

Does it ever change? Clearly, when we realize that fear of the thing is more damaging than the thing itself.

How do I know that I am at this stage? Because I no longer feel a connection to the Divine. I have not felt that the activities that I do during the day truly are taking me to a stronger better me. I seem to be expected to fulfill others needs constantly and put "me" tasks on the back burner. This has me feeling stuck in a whirlwind with no end insight until I am physically able to remove myself from these toxic people who constantly scream"Me me me...look at me, help me!!!!" and make no effort to help themselves.


My work on clearing my mind continues....but I feel like the crap comes back because I keep having to rest my head there.