Obsessive Tendencies

Tree of Obsessions - by Cinzia Bacilieri


So I have a tendency to obsess on an issue. Its absolutley ridiculous actually that I feel like I want to slap myself. I would begin just to try to analyze a topic, and then it would grow in my mind to a huge big deal.

For any Magick worker, this is a worry. I must try not to obsess, as it prevents me from looking at the wider picture, and then I cannot get into my zone.

For the past two weeks I have noticed that I have had difficulty connecting with the Goddess. I worry constantly if the decisions I make are correct, because I let pre- programmed paradigms poke fun at my decisions. They are like a pack of Demons constantly punishing me for choosing a different direction.

I wonder if I would ever rid myself of these mental programmes which were input into my brain from a child. How come I could recognised their limitations, and still be worried by them, and still have to go over them, kick them around and crunch the little buggers under me feet.

Yet, they pop up again like the annoying bastards that they are........ maybe if I create a mental Trash Bin and throw them in there for 5 points, I could make a game out of getting rid of these limiting paradigms. Hmmmm my inner child would love that...LOL

The Joy of not Knowing

Divination can be a useful tool if used wisely. One thing I have noticed though, is that upon recieving messgaes from above, our mind gets "fixed" to that paradigm, and all other possibilities wich can happen are thrown out the window as we accept the reading we are given.

What if the response we get from the cards, tes leaves etc is not what we want. How do we change the energies to create a better outcome for ourselves. In a situation where neither choice is the perfect one, how do we resist the urge to "seal" the outcome in our minds and leave it up to fate to do what is best for us?

Knowing defines the outcome. Knowing puts a stamp on the "its going to happen." When you do not kow what's next, the journey can be just as enjoyable as you flit from happy point to happy point, just content to go along with the gifts that come your way.

This is especially important when you are going through a transitional period in your life. Not knowing may be the remedy you need.