Playing "The Fool" a little too long

So ....for my work with Uranus Magick-attempting real change in my life, I had been focusing on The Fool Tarot Card to help change the old patterns of my vibrations to one of new possibility. Having ousted myself from my old life, and still waiting patiently for this one to "settle" down so to speak, I find that I have many opportunities being thrown on my path. My problem is that I am still in the mind set of wanting to experience "newness" or the "state of all possibilities" which is given by the Fool card meditation. I was contemplating this the other day when it hit me that for the last three months I have been in a state of suspension, and feel rather like a runner poised on the starting block waiting for the pistol to fire.......can you imagine the state of mind of the individual waiting for that starting sound, for hours, for days, for months? What would the person do....hang around waiting? Relax and walk away from the block.... do you stay on the track or do you go for a walk about and see whats what?

Perhaps, I then thought, I should be focusing on a card that indicated success and accomplishment. Then I should be meditating on The World. However, before reaching The World, I may have to divert to meditations on the four Aces to master thought, passions, emotions, and material realities......

With this in Mind... I am now attempting to assimilate teachings from The Master Key System, in the hopes that my thoughts will pull focus into what I want for myself........just as soon as I decide what that is.......


Oh...link to the Master Key System:The Master Key System

The need for Power over others

If I led a coven (which I have no intention of doing) and a young recruit came to me I would ask,"Why do you wish to be a witch?"

Should anyone reply : "To gain power over my enemies!" I would reply to them.." Sadly, your enemies have already won!"


A disturbing report to run on Samhain.... a report on teenaged depression which indicated that students in South Trinidad admitted to performing witchcraft to have power over their enemies. I often wonder why teenagers are power obsessed..... and lament at the Hollywood perception that witches can gain power over their enemies.

I wish that such misconceptions would stop. Time perhaps...... only time.

That old familiar feeling

There is a particular quality around me these days that is so familiar. I am staying at relatives until I can find a place. But the feeling in this house is so familiar. Funny, I had a dream the other day where the three individuals in the house were represented as three lions. Not regal lions leading the heard, but lions so gripped by hunger that they attacked any one indiscriminately who looked like they could provide them with the food they crave.

The three minds are tied up in themselves, one tied by fear, one tied by a religion, and one tied by fears and rules placed upon that mind by the other two. It is very very painful to watch.
Because of the energy reverberating from these three, which permeates throughout the house, my muse has chosen to stay away. It is as if the very house itself  is one large mental trap with all their fears seeping through its very core. I look around at the animals and their reaction as well. The birds don't come near it, the dragonflies die near it.
The focus of the individuals in the house has the strongest personality seeking evil in everything and everyone. There is always a negative story to tell. So much resentment, so much fear, so much "look out for this or that."
The other mind supports the fears and quietly stand by, and the third, poor soul, is almost driven to madness and depression by these negative thoughts.
I am shielding everyday.

Hmmm.... Sun Magick for strength of character and dragonfly or butterfly magick for escape may help.

Where is it?

And the spiral continues.
We go back to that space where the magick seems to have gone. The focus and concentration needed to learn further has disappeared.

My mind is not mine.

It seems too taken up in the world right now. 

Perhaps I am silenced?

Many times I have begun a post with the intention of revealing the process by which Uranus Magick was done. After all, I have gotten results, and I only reveal spells/rituals that actually give me results. I feel like I am letting down my readers because I have not written about the method I used in the Uranus Magick- no I have only said that it has worked.
Every time I try to blog about it, I lose patience, get headaches, lose focus or get this stress buzz in my head which makes me unable to blog.

Perhaps the Gods and Goddess are asking me to "Be Silent"?
Perhaps it is for individual witches to find their own method? Perhaps the method that worked for me will not work for others which will lead to disappointment?

Anyone can find the right answer for themselves, but no one can find the right answer for everyone.


Further to my progress though, I have removed my thoughts from Uranus, and now begin to focus on Venus and Sun Magick...or a combination thereof....... for I have seen all the changes I want to have right now...time to settle down and make things bloom.

Uranus Magick Worked

I know.... I haven't been on for a while. Please note that Uranus Magick worked....
You can see correspondences at this web site"
Uranus Associations

I wanted to change jobs, career paths, love life, my apartment. And I can truly say that all of the above have been removed. I can see on the horizon...the New Dawn to come. Everything is within my path. It'll take some time to reach me...a few month's or so. But I am willing to Hang around for a while till I reach my Nine of Pentacles...... which came from a recent reading.

Blessing to all.

Dark Shadows remake

http://youtu.be/En0fPi2C8vc

This is the original Dark Shadows from way back when. I actually do not remember watching this as a child. My mother did tell me that I would be entranced by the character Barnabas though.......
it was the beginning of my love affair with the gothic.
Heard Tim Burton and Johnny Depp are collaborating on a remake. Sweet!

Creating my own god

In reading "The Power of Myth" as told by Bill Moyers in interviewing Joseph Campbell, I was struck by this particular quotation:
"A god is the personification of a motivating power or value system that functions in human life an in the universe- the powers of your own body and of nature. The myths are metaphorical of spiritual potentiality in the human being, and the same powers that animate our life animate the life of the world."


I began to wonder if the inability to attain my goal, is because of my disbelief that any god will support such a goal. 
I need then to break down the goal to its very essence, its underlying energy, and to "create" a god that supports my ideas and mimics the energies needed.
My myth needs to be reflective of the spiritual goal that i am trying to reach.
Creating my own god......my own personification of myself as I wish to be......funnnnnn

Uranus Magick - pt 3

So further to my Uranus Magick experiment, I thought I'd just update readers on how things have been progressing.
I have developed the courage to let all the negatives go. By that I mean, the willingness to let everything that I do not want in my life go. The idea is that once the unwanted is shed- it will make room for the wanted.
So - there went the job....and then that means the apartment. I slowly trim down all the burdens and the worries till I am left with the minimum of what I want. My kids, my car, my laptop etc etc...books and art supplies etc.
Then, in the cocoon of a friends home, who has willingly agreed to be my shelter in this process, I begin slowly to let in only what my heart speaks to. Only those things that truly give me purpose are allowed. Those bits of yourself and your actions that make you feel connected to a grander part of life.

It is a lofty ambition. But if it isn't done, I will continuously be on that treadmill of unhappiness that I have been existing in for the past eight - ten years.

Keep only that which has meaning, that which touches your soul. All other things are unnecessary.

I am still here- On my way home.

This video sounds like I feel. I feel like I am on my way home. Right now, at this very moment. For the first time in all my life, I feel like I am heading home- in the right direction.

After a long journey of trying to find where I belong; I finally know where I belong, and I am staring at the door and the handle.

It make take a while to enter because the door still has to open. But I have all the time in the world, and it will open eventually.

Loving being here, right were I am in my life at this very moment...........

A Banishing is needed

There is a meme inside my office building...a spirit if you must call it that.
It is a spirit of "everyone else is so dumb, and I am the only intelligent one"
It seems to grip hold of the new folk (and staff rotation is high!)
Perhaps a banishing is needed?

Can you ethically perform a banishing without the knowledge of your coworkers?
Hmmm....ethics to ponder

Am I growing? and where?

I haven't blogged for a while. Honestly, inside I am on pause. I have stopped to take a look at the scenery. I am taking stock of what I have, where I wish to go, based on what is important to me.

Spiritual growth is only good, if you can apply it to the material world in practical ways. Our spirit lives on this earth, our spirit lives in the shell it has manifested due to its energy and vibration. I am looking at what my vibrations have led me to become, and how do I change it to where I want to be.
Sometimes; the best Magick is knowing what to do, and just not doing anything but trusting the Universe to always be on your side.

Blessed Be........Blessed, blessed be................

Freedom Of Worship - Today's Celebration

Today is Spiritual / Shouter Baptiste Liberation Day on my island. It is a holiday that celebrates the freedom of a people to worship as they see fit. This group has been hounded by authorities in the past. It was illegal to hold flowers, candles or gather to worship with this form of expression. A few years back, the government finally revised the laws that prevented the people from this freedom of worship. Soon they will be given a school for members of their faith.

You would think that in this country, where our multi ethnic and multi belief backgrounds merge; that tolerance would be high. Sadly it is not so. The undercurrent mumblings of the people still speak to distrust based on your flavour of worship. Mainstream religions whisper in the back rooms about the danger of the other. Families commenting among themselves why the neighbor is not to be trusted : "Dey does put ting in dey food. Dey go give yuh a spirit!"

Our colonial minds still cannot fathom that God is All, of many names; and it is our desire to connect to the ALL that acts like an instinct; and can connect our mind with so many channels to choose from. Whatever name we call HIM/HER/ THEM....our minds register the same euphoric feeling. Whether we talk in tongues or dance to the drum, or face east and pay homage; or light our candles, deyas, incense........we connect with ALL.

So... to the woman who got evicted from her apartment because she worships OGUN, this day is for you.
For the young lady who got thrown out of her mother's house because she follows a Wiccan path, this day is for you.

For the Hindu family, whose Born Again Christian neighbors refuse to come to your puja thanksgiving; this day is for you.

For the charismatic group who puts fear of different faiths into the hearts of your followers, this day is for you too.
For all of you who distance yourselves from another because their god has a different name, I hope you learn tolerance, and understanding. One day you may be in the minority, and you would want people to judge your heart, not the way you worship (or don't worship)!

Blessed Be.