Why am I a witch?

Which is a good question. What was the path I took which led me to here? Why have I chosen this?
I do not see myself as Wiccan. Wicca was a launching pad which got me here. Wicca has limitations. What is it exactly that I practise? I would call it a thought process...I can say I am teaching myself to think in a way which is empowering and beneficial to myself and my goals.

Why am I forcing myself to learn this? Because I hate the words no..and "it cannot be done" and for all the times that I thought, "why the hell not?"

I knew from early that I had a problem with the word "No." and no irked me most when the experience of the thing was so tempting, and I was not allowed to experience it. Mind you, nothing I wanted to experience was dangerous...no drugs, no wild sex no guns....but gathering information about different lifestyles has always intrigued me. I want to see another thought stream, another lifestyle. Eventually I would see the limitations in them and begin to seek further. Put me in any system, and I would see the limitations and begin to push past them.

The mental state involved in being a Witch...a real honest to goodness one....has you in a state of "all is possible". The only thing which is impossible are the things YOUR mind tells you is impossible. And has that conclusion of impossibility been reached because you have tried and failed? Or is it just that the fears of those who have gone before have told you that it is impossible? Then, how do you change this point of view and change your belief?

Every individual is connected to the All Creative. All our thoughts come from the same source. If you think something, it is because it is time to create it and make it manifest for the greater good....as long as it harm none. If you don't create it, then someone else who hones into that same channel will. It is meant to be created. The only thing that limits the individual, is their inability to believe that it can be done by them.

Being a Witch teaches you that all things are possible. The only thing that limits you, is you. And when you reach that mental state where spells no longer need the runes, and cards and herbs.....when you can sit quietly in your space and will a thing, or better yet you can zone out the psychic babble which surrounds you and center yourself, and will the thing.....then you know you are on the right path to creating a higher you.

Raindrops on Skin

There are some people that you notice sometimes move in similar experiences to yours. One of my "Sisters in Creation" and I occasionally have similar experiences which I marvel at. To me, our lives cannot be more different, but our cycles sometimes cross at points, or don't cross.

Recently, I had an experience getting to know a new guy. He had invited me to an outdoor party or Fete as we call it here, and it began to rain. In true island style, out comes the umbrellas for this fete and the party continued. Our group did not have an umbrella and we happily partied in the rain. At one point, my guy attempted to brush the raindrops from my arm, and time just froze. While at that point my mind was not clear what I felt about him.....the touch made it all too clear. The electrical zap that I got from his touch was hypnotic, and as he casually brushed the wetness from my arm, every skin cell reacted to his touch, sending a vibrating pulse along the rest of my body.

and then Elspeth posts this video.......LOL.........love the connection.

I've had too much to think

The mind that is trying to clear is sometimes the same mind that blocks the process. Its a bitch that one tool can work in opposing sides at the same time. I had to stop myself last night when I realized that I was obsessing about my problems and blocking the solutions from coming. A friend reminded me that over thinking a situation could lead to me becoming depressed....which is exactly what I was beginning to feel.

During this time though, I was able to come up with a plan. Now that I have this plan I would try to shift my mind to something a little less serious. Lets shake this thing up a bt. I have had too much to think.....over thunked?
Time to kick up my heels and have some fun....hmmmm....what can I do? No Magick, no reading, no thinking, no goal setting.........lets just let the days flow.......

The Gathering

Great epic stories always tell of a period in time where a gathering of people and minds take place to push the world to a new direction.
On an astral level, I feel this is happening. I feel the shifts in the ether. On the physical level, I see it happening around me. I am watching, and being a part of several people; who ; in some way or the other; have all been lonely.
I am watching as these individuals who were yearning for the sharing of themselves in more meaningfull ways, are coming together slowly; and building relationships with like-minded people.
What this group will become I am not able to foresee. All I can say is that I feel the bonds strengthening and pulling closer, and this group would be very significant in my life, and there is the possibility of the strongest influence coming from three particular people in this group.
It is too early to tell.....and my heart is not free to decide as yet; but I feel there is potential for an extremely deep connection with one......and as I write this, I can feel the fear in me indicating that I am not ready to deepen that as yet.

What will be, will be...........there is time yet.................and only the Goddess will make that decision.

Emotional Pause

Haven't blogged in ages. There are two reasons. The first is that I have been going through and emotional turmoil, which has only started settling in the last two or three weeks. I am beginning to see the silver lining.
The second is that I have no computer home for a while; and I feel uncomfortable getting into my zone ate work. Don't like the interuptions.
But like all things witchy, the full moon heightens my senses....add to that an unusual feeling cold that seems to make it even worse...and I feel like I am one foot in the astral and one foot in the manifest.

But a question has been running through my mind. How do you put your mind on an emotional hold? Not as in "feel nothing" but as in becoming a detached observer to the things that unfold before you.

I have realized that sometimes its enough to desire.....and let it go trusting that the Goddess has your best interest at heart. Many times I have done this and gotten exactly what I wanted, no fuss, no bother. It is a trick I have to put into practice more often.
My days have been filling with sunshine. I have been meeting new people, and for the first time in ages I am realising what it is like to have a circle of friends who feel more like family than family itself. All I can say for now is that I am falling in love with the entire group of mad asses.......and that I cannot believe that I did not have friends like these before.

Desires for things will be put on hold for a while and I shall hang upside down, totally contrary to my previous "expectations" of what friendship is; and just observe the special magick being worked before me.