Sunday, December 27, 2009

Reflections



The later part of this year was one long spell becoming manifest. I watched while a spell I casted took effect and did not realize the emotional and mental challenge that it would have on me, while I adjusted to this new role.
That's another thing to note. You can cast a spell, or wish, and have it come true.....but you never realise the feelings that have to be processed in order to accomodate this change in your life. Can you inhale some of the bewilderment and grief of letting go of the old? Can you then process that letting go, in time for the new happenings of joy and contentment that are slipping in at the same time? Can you process two completely contrary feelings at the same time? You need to, when a spell is coming to pass.

It has taken six months for the effects of the spell to settle, and at the other end of that doorway, now, I am finally calming down. I used to feel something to the equivalent of being on EMOTIONAL CRACK...... high on a feeling constantly and not always in a good way. Sometimes my mind switched to "happy happy joy joy bunny on cocaine" in order to deal with my low points.

One of the most difficult things to do during the period was to reassert the goal while in the middle of heartbreak. "You wanted something...and this is part of getting that something."

I never suspected for a moment that the outcome was what would happen. But the greater good was always on my mind. The happier more contented me was always the goal. And I am glad for that resolve...I am now in a better place.

Friday, December 25, 2009

On a Dragon's Path



This morning I opened a gift of beautiful Dragon Goblets. I am now undecided about keeping them for ritual, or to use them every day when the mood hits me. Also along with those goblets, and the previously received Dragon Box, is a book on Dragon Magick.
Funny......my magickal group of ladies from around the world in my internet coven were just speaking about Dragon Magick. One of the witches had had a recent encounter with a dragon in the trees near her home.

Maybe I am being directed along a new path....hey I am always keen to explore new areas!!!! Thanks hon......for all the gifts that you have given me, and thanks for keeping the magick alive.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Magickal Ethics






To begin with, please understand that my ethics are mine, and not meant to be preached to anyone.
But this, my blog, is sometimes the place where I work out knots of my mind.
I was thinking the other day obout FREE WILL.
We have been granted Free Will, and hopefully have learnt and understood the responsibility that comes with it. To quote Spiderman "With great power comes great responsibility."

We have learnt the power to magickally ask for assistance from sentient beings which do not exist on our manifest plane, whatever level they may be. But in summoning these beings, aren't we interfering with their Free Will?

And what about creating a being using archetypical energies? Can these energies in their raw form essence be termed "Sentient Beings" and are they entitled to free will?

What about conciousness on a quantum level? Does each individual particle, as all seem to exibit conciousness at some level, have a right to free will?

My magickal work focuses on me. I do ritual to change my vibrations to attract my desires. I ask for no manipulation of any thing, and of course, my request is done with the condition "and it harm none."
It requires a constant analysis of your direction toward your goal. It also requires a constant anaylisi of everything you think, discuss and do....is it assisting your goal? It is indeed a very difficult exersice.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Wychcraft Brewery



Couldn't help myself on this one. The pun was priceless. Brewers, with a full range of Wych beers....
Unfortunately, it isn't available for sale internationally. Damn. Would have loved to have a case or two hanging around. Anyone visiting the UK?
Oh.... here is their site:

http://www.wychwood-shop.co.uk

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Happy Solstice and Christmas Witches



Solstice was yesterday, greetings to all. So ends the decreasing light, and now the days begin to grow longer.

Also for your Yuletide Stories, take a google at La Befana, an italian Christmas Character.

Yule Greetings all.

Monday, December 21, 2009

The Silk Cotton Tree





As a child you wouldn't dare to be near a silk cotton tree on a full moon night. As a matter of fact, you wouldn't dare be near one at all. Malicious spirits of all types roamed under this tree......so you could understand why a child's imagination would see it as evil.

When did this begin to be taught to our youngsters. I ask why, because in West Africa, Puerto Rico,and other places where the Silk Cotton Tree plays a part in the spiritual Heritage of the African Diaspora, the Silk Cotton tree is seen as a link between the spiritual world ans ours. It is not placed in the "evil" file. Rather, it is seen as a place where one can commune with spirits of old, and seek their wisdom. Offering up gifts to the ancestors for wisdom, or connecting with nature for healing is what the tree represents for most.

When did Jamaica (Duppy Tree) and Trinidad start seeing it as evil, and disconnecting from its healing energies? This me chooses to ponder....hmmmmmmmmm.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Yule gift




Isn't it beautiful? I swear you couldn't get anything like this on the island. A dear friend bought this for me last night as an early Yule gift. Yule will be observed very quietly by myself. As I am the only one, I don't want to take away the magic of Christmas yet from my children.

But back to the Dragon Box, it is beautifully detailed with stylized "Tree of life" and Dragon motifs on the sides. I will bless it at the full moon. The Dragon Box has come full of promise for the year to come.

I am keeping it to hold only Dragon's Blood Incense when I get some.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Too Much Light?



A magickal collegue of mine once brought up the idea that too much light healing could be harmful to our triple aspect state of mind-body-spirit.
I am currently reading a book called The Field written by Lynne McTaggart, which has an interesting chapter on Beings of Light which seems to support her views. One chapter highlights the work of a scientist called Fritz-Albert Popp who, along with his students, was able to create a machine which measure light rays emmitting from living things. What he found seems to suggest that the light in any being must maintain a certain balance, or the body “drowns” in light.
I quote some of the text from The Field:

Popp showed in his experiments that these weak light emissions (biophoton emmissions) were sufficient to orshestrate the body. The emmissions had to be of low intensity because these comminications (between cells) were occuring on a quantum level, and higher intensities will be felt only in the world of the large.

The more he tested, the more he discovered that all living things-from the most basic of plants or animals, to human beings in all their sophisticated complexity-emitted a permanent current of photons, from only a few, to hundreds. The number of photons being emitted seemed to be linked to an organism's position on the evolutionary scale.

Emissions seemed to follow other natural rhythms;.......as though the body were following the world's biological rhythms as well as its own.

In experiments done on unhealthy patients, Popp found that cancer patients had lost these natural rhythms, as if they had lost connection the the world at large. Their lines of communication were scrambled. In fact, their light was going out.
Popp further discovered that just the opposite- too much light- seemed harmful to humans.Testes on patients with Multiple sclerosis showed that these individuals were taking in too much light, and this was inhibiting the cells ability to do their jobs. MS patients were drowning in light.

Perfect coherence in the cells, at the optimum level, was a balance between chaos and order.

Herein lies a case for my friend's spiritual sessions on Healing with Darkness.

Monday, December 7, 2009

New Direction Calling




Tapestry painting by Amy E Fraser. Check out more of her work at http://exalted-beauty.blogspot.com

I heard the Dragonfly last night, his wings beating furiously on the walls and floor as he skittered around the room. This morning, he is still in the kitchen calling the message of the Goddess as he is apt to do, with me, quite frequently.

Dragonflies, for me, herald a new journey. I see the closing of whatever path I am on, and the beginnings of a new direction. Where I am now has been explored fully, and no longer attracts my inner child. I am ready to close that door completely and begin afresh through another door.

For the past few months I have been in what seems to be purgatory. A mental nowhere zone, with constant analysis of my past, its lessons, its hurts, and seriously looking at where I want my life to head. I have learned a lot of things about myself, and about what I want in life. I thank those who are staying behind the door that I am closing, they will remain behind that door, but they have taught me many things about myself.

My hand is poised at another door, I am about to push it open. I know that many who have been on the last journey with me will be in the next. I have learned the magick now, the touchstones, the rituals to get me what I need, the power of to know, to will, to dare and to be silent. I have learned to ask with all my heart and let the Goddess take care of it, and it will be granted.
I am grateful to those who hurt me, for allowing me the opportunity of learning lessons about my needs, and to put my desires in front as well. I have no regrets at all. I cannot. I will not be where I am today, without the grief of the past.

So .....forward on. My bundle on my stick, I step off the precipice. I am the Fool, all at zero again. Lets see where this door takes me.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Sorcerers Mind



Reading a text called Sorcery by J. Finley Hurley. I love how he lays out the state your mind can acheive, and its link with magick. He presents it in an almost scientific form, which removes any aspect of emotion or fear. As a matter of fact, if the book were republished under a different heading, its almost not a sorcery book at all....
Any way...some interesting points so far gathered from the book:

- To ask what Magick can do, is to ask what the unconcious can do -


- The brain transforms a barrage of non descript electrical impulses into our diverse experiences of space, form, substance, colour, sound. At the level of the nerve, there is no difference between the impulses-

My thought: Can the brain be reprogrammed to read certain impulses in a different way? Lets say for example, your magickal goal was to obtain a new car. Keeping positive that the car was arriving any minute is key to the magick being successful. What is, in your mind, the sound of a bird transalates into "the car will be here soon" thereby keeping your mind in a positive state about the outcome. Can your brain be taught only positive response from even perceptually negative events?

- Einstien's experiments show that matter can be converted to energy, and vice versa. At the sub atomic level energy and matter are essentially the same.-

My thought: Then what is the link, the key, the point when the vibration in energy decides when a thing is a specific thing? Like the energy vibrated by a dog, or cat. And at that point, how come we are not able mentally to shift the vibration to transform the dog into a cat, or even ourselves into a cat. If matter is neither created or destroyed but can be shifted from one state to another...then we should be able...at some point to find that particle's vibration which determines the outcome materially, and have the option to manipulate it.

My Thought two : Magick holds that like energy attracts like energy. Your perspective generates a particular kind of energy, which attracts confirming energies from your surroundings. How can you decide what you want your outcome to be, and hold that vibration until it is achieved?

- Von Nueman postulated that the concept of objective reality had evaporated. Only subjective reality remains, or something beyond description-

My thought: Truth is then relative- relative to the past experience of the believer, and their objective in the need to believe it.

Our experience of truth is resting solely on these two ideas, and the belief of the individual minds surrounding us, who have had the same ideas programmed into them. We see this on a most basic level when looking at the cultural norms of a people. What is considered taboo in one culture, is considered acceptable in another.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Rest




Can you feel it? The world is on pause. Things are slower than last week. The energies began around Friday...when I noticed there was lack of activity as normal.

I have thought that it could just be me.....the need to rest mentally. The need to change direction and routine, and nurture myself a bit, before deciding any new direction to take.

How much of life should I just accept? And how much should I seek to change? And then, is my decision driven by a magickal mind, or just driven by fear?

I cannot always answer my questions........and I know now one else can.

All that could be done, was a small gratitude circle. I paid homage to the Goddess around mid-day and honoured the four elements. Give thanks to the Goddess, for all the strength I have gathered, for all the gifts I have recieved. I gave thanks to the Goddess for presence of mind to feel the energies, and to be aware of what needs to be done for myself to contribute to the world manifest.

Here I am...creating in my mind.

Blessed Be.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Dance of the mind




Celtic Crystal Avatar - Rose Spinne

Can I play with madness a little and frolic in the sun of my mind?
Can I open the gates of Darkness, and see what treasures I find?
Can I give time to eternity, and feed it with seconds past?
Can I throw death into forever, to see how long it would last?

Can I tug the Golden Threads of thought and pull a few to me?
May I cook up a fairytale, and feed it to reality?
Can I twist the bonds of truth so far that lies seem real to me
May I open up your mind a bit and full it with my fantasy?

These things I wish to do and yet,some reason I do not dare,
To unleash that inner side of me, I do not wish to scare
the ones I love. But dark and light are two sides of the same coin.
Can I open up a club to my mind? If I do, will you join?

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Mind Trapping Fairy Tales.





Been thinking a lot recently about a few mythical themes and how they relate to our expectations about life. The Fairy Tales that we have been brought up on, have a serious impact on our expectations about the way life is supposed to happen in the granting of our wishes and relationships.

Lets take the example of the “Rescue me from my life” theme, which pervades through many stories that we tell our little girls. Look at the themes in Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Rapunzel, Snow White and the Seven Dwarves. All female characters, all living a life of transgression, all waiting for someone else to rescue them from their restrictive lives and take them to a happy place. This is the “Rescue Me” theme. The ability to escape from your current situation lies in the hand of someone else, the “Prince Charming” someone with the capability to remove the heroine from her enslaved situation, and carry her off to somewhere where life is all dandy and roses, and where she would find happiness forever and ever.
Notice though, that for little girls, the rescuer or “Prince Charming” is someone else. In no instance does the female main character rescue herself. She never seems to be able to rise above her circumstance, ans be her own Prince Charming.

This is a direct contrast with fairy tales and legends which have male main characters. In all of these, the male main character comes from a lowly, or less than perfect background, but the ability to transcend this position in life rests solely on his shoulders, with a little help from a few friends (Robin Hood and his Merry Men) or with the help of a mentor (King Arthur and Merlin.)

The messages we send to our daughters through these stories? You are too helpless to transcend yourself, you need a man to assist you and to improve your life. Which explains the way a lot of women I know think. The expectation of marriage or serious relationship at a certain age, the pause in plans for themselves until “Prince Charming” comes around. And, there are even some instances that I see, where, if the relationship does not work out, the search for another Prince Charming begins, and life is almost placed on hold while the mind searches for another rescuer. This is even further reinforced by the behaviour of older women in the family when daughters and neices are not “settled” by a certain age, or when marriages and relationships fail. The failure of the previous generation to create a realistic picture of relationship models, has women “ponging themselves” when marriages do not work out, or they perpetuate the lies of perfection by keeping quiet and disintergating in spiritual spark internally.

Add to this the same theme which pervades throughout the Christian Mythos, and many other religions. A saviour in some form or fashion is coming to rescue you from your earthly horrors. Which is probably why there are so many women in Church.

I think somewhere along the line the stories, which were meant to give hope to those who were in less than perfect circumstances, that something or someone will come along and their circumstances would change. However, the end point has been missed. You are your own Prince Charming, you have to find a way to rise above yourself and remove yourself from the situation. You have to reach in and find your inner Saviour and yank HER out to save yourself from whatever is closing you off from reaching where you want to be.

This is why I like Magick, and esoteric themes. The Christos, the Divine Spark, the Prince Charming character if you will; resides in you. You have to sift through your own psyche and find what it is saying to you. Drag it out from its slumber; have it rise from where it is buried; and resurect yourself.

Your Prince lies within you.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Passion




Coming out from my last post it got me thinking whay so many of my "ideas" remain just ideas and are never manifest. Especially when it comes to career. Thats because I know I lack the passion for it. When it comes to the Fire stage, I fizzle. Creating the idea for me is what I am passionate about, but most of them lack the kind of touchstone which would stoke the fire in me.

Even in my current job I feel the claws of boredom setting in, and not one project has given me excitiment as yet that I feel the urge to wake in the morning and get to work. I know I have to do something soon, because very soon the boredom will be like a crippling vise grip on my mind, and that cycle would begin again.

What am I passionate about? Art, magick, anything which forces me to create by hand. I wish I could learn woodworking, I wish I could learn a skill like plastic molding etc which can take a design from the paper onto a practical usable aspect. Even learning welding to learn to make my own things........

I need to sit with myself and have a stern talk. I am a creative soul, and I am happiest when I am formulating a painting, an image, a design for something I would love to have, or even writing a story, essay or blog. My mind feels like I am in touch with the Higher Creative and I feel enlivened by some power which courses through me. Can't explain the feeling further, but it is where I feel elated.

Having to do the job I do during the day, pulls me out of that zone. There is no connection to something greater when I do it, rather a feeling of floundering in a muddy pool.

This current contract must be the last of its kind that I take. I have three years to build an alternate career out of what I love. I must sit down and think this through.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

The Pentacle and Magick- Pt 2 – Thought Process in the Magickal Mind




I have already explained the Pentacle and the symbols of the circle, the pentagram and the meaning of each of the five points. Lets take a look at how each of these points relate to the process of a Magickal working.

In order to manifest anything at all Magickally, the spell worker must carry the intention through a particular process. Focusing on each part of the process in extremely important, and the end result of each process is also important, as any deviation from that focus will result in scattered energies. Please keep in mind that the meanings behind the symbols Spirit, Air, Fire, Water and Earth mentioned in this essay are not that only symbols that pertain to these elements and are taken in the context of the topic being discussed- which is the process of thinking the Magick.

First of all, what is the Spirit behind your spell working? Is it for improvement of yourself? Is it strictly for pleasure? Either way is okay as long as it interfears with no one else's Will, and harms no one. Remember, even though the intention is good, lets say to work a healing spell; you need to get permission from the one who you are working the spell for. Even positive spell working, without permission is seen as interfering with the Will of another, and this is not allowed in Magick. Remember always the Law of Three, and any attempts to decide what anyone else should want for themselves, will result in the same exercise in control being exhibited on you, three times over. Whatever your goal, please always attempt to construct the ritual in a way that only you are affected, with the back up phrase “ And it harm none so mote it be.” Even if you are in danger, or are trying to remove a person from your life, it is safer to do a protective spell, or an invisibility spell on yourself, than work any spell on the other person. (Invisibility spells do not render you invisible, you just would find the other person not being able to meet up with you through circumstances beyond their control)

More about the Spirit of your mind in a later blog. There are many layers to this thing.

Second, we must look at AIR. Air is the process where you have identified a problem to be solved or a goal to work on, and you sit and think of ways to achieve your aims. Air is the thinking, analyzing part of the situation. What would solve the problem? Which Path can I take? What ritual can I do? Air is where you being to work out the elements of the spell. What focus should I use? Planetary Magick? Elemental Magick? Herbs? A ritual? You must know what your mind responds to. You must know if the result you wish to accomplish is believable to you. If it is not, then you can take steps to change your belief in order to have a successful outcome. By this I can give the example of an individual applying for a position that he sees as his dream job. If there is any doubt in his mind or any insecurity, that the job is not for him, no amount of spell working will create an alternative outcome. He has already decided that it is not for him.....the fate of the spell is sealed. What ever type of Magick is used must reinforce the idea of the goal being a possibility. Air is the thinking out of what we will do to accomplish the goal.

Third we come to FIRE. Fire is the passion we put into the work, because we really want to see it come to be. How many times have we been given a task for which we have no passion, and have given it our half-baked attention, or procrastinated several times. Air can sound great, ideas can be great- but if there is no passion behind it, the chances that it would go beyond the Air stage are almost nil.
Pay attention to the work done in the Air process. At some point, while you are tossing solutions back and forth in your mind (IE, the method of spell working to be used) you may have what Oprah call an “Ah HA” moment, or the elated feeling of excitement that this is the direction you should take. And you will be quite right. This is your inner child telling you that that solution would be fun. That is your subconscious telling you that it can believe that that solution would create the outcome. That is the two-fold aspect of FIRE which you have to be aware of.

For the stage which represents WATER, our emotions are the key here. At that point in Fire, where the belief is reinforced as a greater possibility, we will usually get a flood of emotions imagining ourselves at the point of manifestation, (IE imagining ourselves in the new car, or getting the job offer) The emotions which we have at that point are key. Are they positive? Are they negative? Do they begin as positive and then become tinged with doubt? In this stage, manifestation of the thing is most probable in the instance where there is no doubt of its possibility. If there is any doubt entering your mind, then you need to address that doubt, again by finding ways to change your belief about it, and begin anew with another spell.

EARTH, is the manifestation of the thing we worked for. It is the realization that, through seemingly magickal efforts, the thing we worked a spell for has come to pass in a way that is unexpected. There is much to caution the Magick worker in the interim between Water and Earth, but again that will be dealt with in another post. Understand that Magick and Nature are one, and the way the thing becomes manifested, will be in keeping with the Laws of Nature. Its not going to pop out of the sky people, but it will appear. One example I can put my head on a block for is something I have wished for, and done such a simple spell for that it almost seemed like no spell at all.
There was an incense burner which I saw on line that I loved. I wished for it. I chanted a rhyme which asked the Goddess to add that to my cache of magickal tools. I had really forgotten about the thing when it shows up via the most unusual channel of a very Catholic family member giving one to me because she had no use for it. Someone had given it to her as a gift, and she had no clue how to use it.
Remember always, on the receipt of the thing you worked the spell for, always thank the Goddess, or God or Deity that you called on for assistance. Better still, thank the gods anyway- because you could be like me and forget that you worked the spell.....only to remember it a few days after receiving the thing.

This takes us back to where? Spirit of course! Because after the thing that you have wished for and spell worked for becomes manifest; you experience a buoyancy of Spirit and on some level, your spiritual connection to the All has been increased if only for a moment. But once the experience has been had, the chances of you believing that you can work a successful spell will increase the second time around.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Stuck in a rut


I feel stuck in a rut. I feel like all the plans I have decided I was going to do are still very much up in the air. I made all these decisions, and haven't done a damned thing about them. If I were a psychic though, I would say that somewhere around 1:43 am this morning I woke up with a sense that something in the Universe had shifted. At that time, I felt elated...like a child waking up at Yuletide morn with the expectations of presents. Like something was going to be given to make everything seem like the world was great once again.

This morning though, I woke up with a feeling of incredible lonleyness, same as I went to bed with last night. About 10 pm last night I was on the computer with the feeling to search, although I had no idea what I was searching for. The realization that there was no one I could reach out to was painful and worrying, and it kept me up till close to midnight. Tried calling a few friends, but everyone was asleep....duh!!!

I know the feeling though. It is a familiar one for me. It begins as a feeling of lacking, of wanting, and then it gravitates to my need to reach out to someone to feel connected to something wider. Then I realize there is no one to connect to that has the answers to my questions. No one can tell me which choice to make to be happy. Everything has a huge question mark with it. How do we get past this predicament. Could one just settle their minds to be happy come what ever happens?

Did that for the last decade there abouts and was not truly happy, so that doesn't work. Why do I have this fear that life is short, and if I don't make a decision now, life would just escape me?

Indecision is the worst hurdle that I ever encounter, and it has the ability to make me wonder in circles for years.......and I don't think I have time for that anymore.

Friday, October 9, 2009

The Pentacle- and Magick - Part 1



The pentacle, a five pointed star within a circle, represents among other things, the five elements of Nature, surrounded by and existing in a never ending circle of creation. The circle represents the unending, ever cycling nature of the existence we live in. Nothing is ever destroyed, just becomes something else. If you did physics you may remember that energy is neither created nor destroyed, but undergoes a transformation into a different state.

The Five points from the top clockwise are Spirit, Air, Fire, Water and Earth. Spirit marks the beginning. We begin as a Spiritual being, ideas begin on the spiritual plane.

Air represents thoughts, ideas, consciousness and things to do with the mind. All that is intellectual, logical, communicative, expressive and abstract. Air has active masculine and changeable characteristics.

Fire, the third point, is passion, will, and desire. All that is dynamic, energetic, vitalizing, invigorating, spontaneous, and initiating. Fire contains trans formative energies, is unpredictable and regenerating. Fire has active masculine properties.

Our fourth point from the top represents Water. Water symbolizes all that is receptive, sustaining, fluidic, the subconscious, hidden, mysterious and generative. It represents emotions, and is passive and feminine.

The last point on the pentacle is Earth. Earth is the manifested property of our existence. This energy is grounding, slow moving, stable, materializing. All activities of fertility and growth are attributed to Earth, and well as material abundance. Earth also has passive and feminine qualities.

The pentacle, a symbol of protection represents all the properties of existence ruled by spirit. In wearing the pentacle or adopting it as a personal symbol, you make the claim that all the properties which make up YOUR existence; are ruled by YOUR spirit. You acknowledge that there is a greater ALL, which we are connected to, but your Spirit is a gift, meant to executed some purpose for the good of the ALL.....which is why you are here.

AS we travel along the outer circle of the pentacle, the points also give us guidelines for Magick, and how to move something from the astral level of spirit, bringing it out to its physical existence, guiding it through its elemental stages. More about that later in another post.

By occult teachings, anything that we can imagine already exists in spirit, and can be made to exist in reality. Some occultists go as far to say that anything you need or want, is already yours by way of attracting the energy toward you by mere thought (air), the only things keeping it from manifesting is our ability to carry it through to the other elemental stages (fire -belief that it is mine etc)
Again, more will be discussed in another post.

Blessed be guys, blessed be.


Thursday, October 8, 2009

Sorrel Tea- PMS Relief




Sorrel, in this part of the world, bears friut at Christmas Time, making the drink a tradition for Christmas. Although what people don't realize is that it is great for PMS when drunk about three days before the start of your moon time.
Conveniently, packs of dried sorrel can be found at the local Supermarkets (particularly HiLo) and it is now possible to have the tea all year round.

Sorrel Tea

Three Tablespoons Dried Sorrel
Three cups water

Boil sorrel in water, add sugar to taste. Makes two cups. (I always have a second!)

Drink two cups of teas per day, three days before the expected time. You can continue during your Moon Time, the tea still tastes wonderfully fruity!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Obsessive Tendencies

Tree of Obsessions - by Cinzia Bacilieri


So I have a tendency to obsess on an issue. Its absolutley ridiculous actually that I feel like I want to slap myself. I would begin just to try to analyze a topic, and then it would grow in my mind to a huge big deal.

For any Magick worker, this is a worry. I must try not to obsess, as it prevents me from looking at the wider picture, and then I cannot get into my zone.

For the past two weeks I have noticed that I have had difficulty connecting with the Goddess. I worry constantly if the decisions I make are correct, because I let pre- programmed paradigms poke fun at my decisions. They are like a pack of Demons constantly punishing me for choosing a different direction.

I wonder if I would ever rid myself of these mental programmes which were input into my brain from a child. How come I could recognised their limitations, and still be worried by them, and still have to go over them, kick them around and crunch the little buggers under me feet.

Yet, they pop up again like the annoying bastards that they are........ maybe if I create a mental Trash Bin and throw them in there for 5 points, I could make a game out of getting rid of these limiting paradigms. Hmmmm my inner child would love that...LOL

Friday, October 2, 2009

Magickal Mind

I am currently struggling with a two relationship models which I have to chose from. I would love to make up my mind soon, but my mind is preventing me from doing just that. Like any other girl in my generation I was brought up with the Prince Charming scenario, where the Prince rescues the Princess from her tormented issues and whisks her off into happily ever after land.

I must admit that in my last three relationships, I was waiting to be rescued. There was this energy of "waiting for the Prince" in order to live my life and be a whole person.
Unfortunately, that paradigm did not work really. Because, in today's world, I cannot seem to tolerate Princes who refuse to grow....and eventually conflict arises...and I part ways with them.

So recently, having done the same thing, met up with the Uncles and Aunties who were quick to dole out advice about what I was doing wrong, and what I should do next. I hear their relationship model....but they too admit that the traditional one does not work either. There was lamentation, that women want their own lives and their own homes and do not wish to get married anymore....and indeed I must obviously hate men because of my experiences.

So..... my model has not worked for me for the last three relationships, and even though they insist I must now follow their model- that does not ring true for me either- and not one of them can admit to being completely happy.

I think I'd better stick to my model, because I have been through it and can perfect its shortcomings.....while their model seems like a prison sentence to me.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Why am I a witch?

Which is a good question. What was the path I took which led me to here? Why have I chosen this?
I do not see myself as Wiccan. Wicca was a launching pad which got me here. Wicca has limitations. What is it exactly that I practise? I would call it a thought process...I can say I am teaching myself to think in a way which is empowering and beneficial to myself and my goals.

Why am I forcing myself to learn this? Because I hate the words no..and "it cannot be done" and for all the times that I thought, "why the hell not?"

I knew from early that I had a problem with the word "No." and no irked me most when the experience of the thing was so tempting, and I was not allowed to experience it. Mind you, nothing I wanted to experience was dangerous...no drugs, no wild sex no guns....but gathering information about different lifestyles has always intrigued me. I want to see another thought stream, another lifestyle. Eventually I would see the limitations in them and begin to seek further. Put me in any system, and I would see the limitations and begin to push past them.

The mental state involved in being a Witch...a real honest to goodness one....has you in a state of "all is possible". The only thing which is impossible are the things YOUR mind tells you is impossible. And has that conclusion of impossibility been reached because you have tried and failed? Or is it just that the fears of those who have gone before have told you that it is impossible? Then, how do you change this point of view and change your belief?

Every individual is connected to the All Creative. All our thoughts come from the same source. If you think something, it is because it is time to create it and make it manifest for the greater good....as long as it harm none. If you don't create it, then someone else who hones into that same channel will. It is meant to be created. The only thing that limits the individual, is their inability to believe that it can be done by them.

Being a Witch teaches you that all things are possible. The only thing that limits you, is you. And when you reach that mental state where spells no longer need the runes, and cards and herbs.....when you can sit quietly in your space and will a thing, or better yet you can zone out the psychic babble which surrounds you and center yourself, and will the thing.....then you know you are on the right path to creating a higher you.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Raindrops on Skin




There are some people that you notice sometimes move in similar experiences to yours. One of my "Sisters in Creation" and I occasionally have similar experiences which I marvel at. To me, our lives cannot be more different, but our cycles sometimes cross at points, or don't cross.

Recently, I had an experience getting to know a new guy. He had invited me to an outdoor party or Fete as we call it here, and it began to rain. In true island style, out comes the umbrellas for this fete and the party continued. Our group did not have an umbrella and we happily partied in the rain. At one point, my guy attempted to brush the raindrops from my arm, and time just froze. While at that point my mind was not clear what I felt about him.....the touch made it all too clear. The electrical zap that I got from his touch was hypnotic, and as he casually brushed the wetness from my arm, every skin cell reacted to his touch, sending a vibrating pulse along the rest of my body.

and then Elspeth posts this video.......LOL.........love the connection.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I've had too much to think


The mind that is trying to clear is sometimes the same mind that blocks the process. Its a bitch that one tool can work in opposing sides at the same time. I had to stop myself last night when I realized that I was obsessing about my problems and blocking the solutions from coming. A friend reminded me that over thinking a situation could lead to me becoming depressed....which is exactly what I was beginning to feel.

During this time though, I was able to come up with a plan. Now that I have this plan I would try to shift my mind to something a little less serious. Lets shake this thing up a bt. I have had too much to think.....over thunked?
Time to kick up my heels and have some fun....hmmmm....what can I do? No Magick, no reading, no thinking, no goal setting.........lets just let the days flow.......

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

The Gathering

Great epic stories always tell of a period in time where a gathering of people and minds take place to push the world to a new direction.
On an astral level, I feel this is happening. I feel the shifts in the ether. On the physical level, I see it happening around me. I am watching, and being a part of several people; who ; in some way or the other; have all been lonely.
I am watching as these individuals who were yearning for the sharing of themselves in more meaningfull ways, are coming together slowly; and building relationships with like-minded people.
What this group will become I am not able to foresee. All I can say is that I feel the bonds strengthening and pulling closer, and this group would be very significant in my life, and there is the possibility of the strongest influence coming from three particular people in this group.
It is too early to tell.....and my heart is not free to decide as yet; but I feel there is potential for an extremely deep connection with one......and as I write this, I can feel the fear in me indicating that I am not ready to deepen that as yet.

What will be, will be...........there is time yet.................and only the Goddess will make that decision.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Emotional Pause

Haven't blogged in ages. There are two reasons. The first is that I have been going through and emotional turmoil, which has only started settling in the last two or three weeks. I am beginning to see the silver lining.
The second is that I have no computer home for a while; and I feel uncomfortable getting into my zone ate work. Don't like the interuptions.
But like all things witchy, the full moon heightens my senses....add to that an unusual feeling cold that seems to make it even worse...and I feel like I am one foot in the astral and one foot in the manifest.

But a question has been running through my mind. How do you put your mind on an emotional hold? Not as in "feel nothing" but as in becoming a detached observer to the things that unfold before you.

I have realized that sometimes its enough to desire.....and let it go trusting that the Goddess has your best interest at heart. Many times I have done this and gotten exactly what I wanted, no fuss, no bother. It is a trick I have to put into practice more often.
My days have been filling with sunshine. I have been meeting new people, and for the first time in ages I am realising what it is like to have a circle of friends who feel more like family than family itself. All I can say for now is that I am falling in love with the entire group of mad asses.......and that I cannot believe that I did not have friends like these before.

Desires for things will be put on hold for a while and I shall hang upside down, totally contrary to my previous "expectations" of what friendship is; and just observe the special magick being worked before me.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Casting fear


Now, I am a little reluctant to cast. The reason is I am not in my usual emotional state, and I know that any attept at casting may include me losing focus and thinking the wrong image when I do.
I am afraid to cast because I realize that I totally misinterpret the things that will make me happy.
All I can do are gratitude rituals. When I realize something I should be thankfull for, I offer up something to the Goddess in thanks. I am now hesitant to want.....hesitant to desire....ecause I don't know if it will be good for me.
I am magickally on hold.....just letting the Universe reveal itself as it should.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

The Joy of not Knowing


Divination can be a useful tool if used wisely. One thing I have noticed though, is that upon recieving messgaes from above, our mind gets "fixed" to that paradigm, and all other possibilities wich can happen are thrown out the window as we accept the reading we are given.
What if the response we get from the cards, tes leaves etc is not what we want. How do we change the energies to create a better outcome for ourselves. In a situation where neither choice is the perfect one, how do we resist the urge to "seal" the outcome in our minds and leave it up to fate to do what is best for us?
Knowing defines the outcome. Knowing puts a stamp on the "its going to happen." When you do not kow what's next, the journey can be just as enjoyable as you flit from happy point to happy point, just content to go along with the gifts that come your way.
This is especially important when you are going through a transitional period in your life. Not knowing may be the remedy you need.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

ENERGY ALERT- Solar Eclipse


The energies from a solar eclipse are very potent. I hope the following describes the energies:

1) Imgine the sensation of inhaling all you can and holding...and that point where you first exhale, the energies are released.
2) Imagine watching a wave gather, crest...at the time when it crests.....
Can you imagine a feel the energies. There is a pause...just a small moment when all cycles have ended...and here comes the new time.
All soloar Eclipses come with a New Moon (so I have learnt) and spellwork that is done for a new moon is extremely potent here. Gear up for something big. What new development would you like to have? What new cylce is beginning.
For my part I am at a HUGE transition in my life... I am fluctuating between cycles in career, family and love. There has been a huge shift in my life emphasizing new beginnings, and major changes to come. So I will be up at 5am (my time) which is about the time that the energies will touch down in the Earth somewhere in India.........
For more info to assist you in creating a ritual for this time...you can use the same correspondences as AIR..........

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

The Danger of Astrology

It all started with me reading a text somewhere about my astrological configurations for 2008-2009. I read that this period will be the time of casting away, and letting go of all things that were not real, or really good for me. Jobs, places, relationships. That got me spooked. How real is my current relationship? We had been together eight years, we had a reasonably happy family life. But something inside me, and inside him knew that something was hollow. I felt it, he felt it, but niether of us were facing up to it.
Instead of letting events take place naturally, I badgered and bagered and nagged him to reveal what his feelings were for me. Must have caught him in a bad time. He exploded.....sort of..... accused me of pushing him over the edge and trying to force him to feel what he didn't feel.
The arguement died, we even made up...sort of.
Again I pushed....this time it was decided that if neither of us were truly happy in the relationship, maybe we would be better off apart. He says that for the last five years he hasn't loved me, and has stayed for the sake of the children. That hurt. Here was a man, who I cannot have any fault with his ability to provide for us, admitting that he was not happy with me. It was agreed that he would move at the end of the month.

Things sort of calmed down for a few days. We even made passionate love, before it began I asked him if he was using me, or I was forcing him....but he said no, he wanted to make love. All that day he was sweet, we made love twice........ I thought we were back on track.... I had hoped.

But then I pushed again....and it broke this time......flaring up in an arguement which hurt so musch, I had to push him out the door. The faster he left, the faster we'd get on with our lives.

Would this have happened if the thought was not injected into my mind? I don't know. But I still think there is danger in knowing too much.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Garlic and Lime Tea for sniffles and Sore Throat

I had a sore throat coming on, plus fears of swine flu with sniffles added. I've been reading about the curative effects of garlic for colds, and lime as well. So I blended this tea, and found an almost instant soothing of my throat which lasted until the next day. Had another dose last night as the itchy throat was returning, but was okay well into the next day. Its 3:00pm and I feel okay. The sore throat has gone, only a slight sniffle remains. The taste takes getting used to but if you like garlic that shouldn't be a problem.

I actually buy a bag of fresh garlic (about 5 heads) occasionally, and blend the whole batch. It keeps in the fridge for about two weeks, and so easy to scoop out what you need. I do not like buying crushed garlic in the supermarket, because there are always other things in there.

Ingredients:
1 tsp Garlic which has been crushed and blended
half a small lime
Two teaspoons sugar
Hot water to fill your cup.
Blend all together and stir widershins, imagining the healing powers getting stronger. Further visualize the germs shriveling to a pulp when you drink it. Enjoy !
Remember, if symptoms persist for more than two days, see a doctor!

Monday, June 15, 2009

Selene- Moon Goddess


Selene, Moon Goddess. Daughter of Titans Thela and Hyperion. Sister of Helios(Sun) and Eos (dawn). Selene fell in love with the mortal Endymion, a shepherd. To ensure he had eternal life, Selene cast a spell to make him sleep forever, with his permission of course. They had 50 daughters together.
From my observations, the following is a list of effects from invoking Selene.
1) Sleep patterns are disturbed.
2) Dreams are more lucid, and energies hover more into the day. These energies can be felt with a shifting of attention.
3) Daytime mind is cloudy and lethargic.
4) Tendency to loose touch with lreality.
5) Magickal understanding increases.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Selene- Goddess of the Moon







Some time back when preping my plant familiar, intuition made me refer to her as Selene.
My familiar's spirit would leave the plant during my spell, travel throught the ether to do my work, and return to the basil plant on my porch.
One day...a guilt trip came over me. I suddenly felt the need to release the spirit, and I let Selene off on her own.
A few weeks ago, while out on the porch looking out in the night, a thought popped into my head..."Selene, show me a sign." Then, in the little grove at the center of the neighbourhood, out flies a huge bird, odd; as it was nighttime. It was either and owl, or a hawk.
Both birds have similar meanings, a guide, teacher, or wise one to show you the way.
I have yet to meet the wise one, I know that I am sometimes closed to others spiritually guiding me. The Wise One, may be Selene herself.
I have found that my thoughts are on the goddess archetypes these days, and I have begun study of them. May I be open to a wise one....if there is one around.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Goddess Candle


When you make your own ritual tools, the energies are stronger. Made this candle last weekend, strictly for the Goddess. I am waiting for Full Moon to light it to pay homage.
I really wish, that there could be a permanent Goddess Altar somewhere in Trinidad. Chaguaramas would be nice...think they would give me a space?

Friday, May 15, 2009

Goddess Rising


The energies of the Goddess are rising in my country. There is a group of artists who are meeting to create an altar for the Goddess, in a space where the spiritual viel is thin.
Years ago, this was used as a place of worship and of burial. There are still graves there, marked by a series of crosses, honoring those who have crossed the bridge from spirit to earth, and back again to spirit.
What does this mean for those of us who hide our beliefs? What does this mean for us who watch these brave creative people, cast all caution to the wind, and do exactly what we were meant to do?
Artists are the Air.....and we the followers are the fire....
The Goddess has been stoking the fire...ensuring that the flame was ready, and at the same time introducing the thought to those brave enough to start the Beginning of the new time.
The date....well...the moon will be in increase........

Thursday, May 14, 2009

WHATS THE POINT?


Found this picture on this website below.
One of those times where I wonder what's the point. Whats the point of blogging when no one reads them. Why pour my heart out when no one hears. Why analyze this unsatisfied feeling in my heart when I will return to it anyway? Why love, when you will only get hurt? Why paint when they sit and collect dust. Why rant anyway, when it does nothing to improve my feelings.
You know what? The world is a shitty place, and I would be glad when its all over.
And whats the point of thinking this way...when the other side of life could be worse....

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Back to the Beginnings



The Elders at Witchschool did caution that the learning curve would actually be a spiral. After a feverish frenzy of reading and getting lost in conflicting views, I have come back to the beginning. Am I a witch? If not...then what am I? What exactly do I believe. Here begins the discriminatory process of identifying those thigs that work, and chucking those things that I do not identify with.

One thing I agree with is the Quantum element. The theory that whatever you believe will be confirmed by the Universe....so...what do you want to believe?

I begin a new journey with study on the morning ritual. I am in the process of creating my own morning ritual, encorporating the elements, and specific sounds and movements to greet the day. My ritual should speak of gratitude, harmony with the Universe and acceptance that it knows what is the best direction for me to take....

I begin again.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Alchemy


One path leads to another...... and I am on the Alchemy Avenue. T'is a strange road, this Alchemy Avenue. Squares are placed within circles and Suns and Moons get married, and its all in search of the stone that is not a stone...The Philosopher's Stone.
But it is so intriguing, so comforting..... so connected from past to present. So honest in its crack pots and depressed followers, and in its ties to the most exciting art ever seen by man kind.
As I read more about it, I see the Matrix, Star Wars, Harry Potter, The Crucible, and all the other favourite "otherworldly" themes which perpetuate the world's greates films, books and arts......
To be aware....to be that aware to the point that the energies come to you before they settle on the Earth.
You are the first Air...... and then the dissilution comes, and the Negrado is whitened...........
I am in heaven........

Friday, March 13, 2009

Chemical Weddings


So intrigued I was by the marriage of Sol and Luna, that I think I wish to persue this Path further. I love the dabblings of salt and sulphur, and know what the mercurial element means, the one from the philosopher. Can I be content with such rich symbology, or will my mind be distracted by a new path laid in front of me. I am attracted to symbols and metaphors and anything from which ideas open doors.
Perhaps in time I shall look back and see that this was beneficial to my journey.

Monday, March 9, 2009

....in flux

I have the information. I know the information. I can even break apart and recreate the information.
I have been asked to teach. Why, then does my mind hover on the cusp, like a razorblade edge of indecision? Why does it excite me, but doesn’t. Why do I want to turn away, close all the accounts, snap all the connections I have; and walk from this thing called Wicca.

I know.
I have felt the limitations of the thing. I have felt that if I, and this is only limited to me; if I begin to practice the formal form of Wicca, I shall be mind-trapped by its methodology and Dogma.
Indeed, it has a dogma.
While its elders are arguing that it is a personal faith, with a dash of creativity, there are those who misunderstood its charm, and are intent on placing rules and regulations on form and ritual. This would just defeat the purpose.

Then there is the side of me that wants to keep my options open, and wants to be free to be spiritually creative. Adhering to Wicca, practicing the Craft intently, will create a new paradigm in my mind which will limit my thoughts.
I do not want to limit my thoughts.
Magickal practice too, has its limits. It is limited by my imagination. And since I am currently undergoing a painter’s block, it’s not a very good feeling.
I feel like I am on a boat, rocking with the waves. I have to options, pick a direction one way or the other and steer toward that course, or just lie back, look at the view and relax with the rocking.

Who knows, maybe I may drift somewhere exciting.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Fear


Fear, however unwarrented is a horrible and crippling thing. Fear of a thing can hold you back from experiencing life to the fullest. Fear of a comment, of ridicule, of following a crowd, of getting involved........ all acted on..lead to fear of being alone.

Why do I always feel alone? How is it possible that I who live with a house full of people, can feel so isolated from the world and everything. How is it that I, who used to be the center of attention, the belle of the ball, can end up with no support network, no close friends, nothing but online socializing.


I know the answer...just being rhetorical.


I do not act on my desires. And thats the only answer. I desire a thing, then find the shame in desiring. I find reasons to be guilty for a simple need to be with other people. I have depended totally on my husband and children for companionship, that now as they are growing older, and getting involved with other things in life, I am left isolated, with no one to relate to.


I seek interaction outside, but find the choices lacking. I get little pleasure from interacting with women, whose focus is only clothes, and children. I see more worth in interactions with men...they seem less competitive, less eager to criticize, and their topics, when they are intelligent span a range of issues, with a dash of humour thrown in.

My online friends are the best conversation I have had in ages.... but I need the connection to be more than that. A voice, a face, a need to sit in different auras that are exciting.


Sigh.....some planetary spellwork is probably needed, or maybe my heart and throat chakras need cleaning out completely.........

The heaviness in my heart is painful. I wish to be releived of it. I wish to be saved.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Focus on hold

Legend has is among the charismatics that just when you are about too turn in the right direction, ole Satan throws a wrench in your pipeworks.
Or, as the Witches say....when the seeker needs one, the teacher would come.
But are you teacher, or distraction?
How do you know when a thing is in your best interest, especially when it feels so good.
Especially when it gives you encouragement to raise beyond your self and push your own boundries. And especially when the world seemslike your Genie is waiting to hear your wishes, and snap everyone of them into being.?
Whatever the purpose, there is no doubt in my mind that Fates are smilining on this chance encounter. That my mind was enriched by such a happening.
Every once in a while, you need to broaden your focus to see where to zoom in on next.........
broadening may be a good thing for now.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Love Bytes


The pictures says it all. I shall have to experiment in Astral travelling to go any further.
The last three days were mind changing. I felt more alive than I have felt in ages.
I feel a new direction coming on, one that is full of possibilty. One that has All Potential surrounding it.
I will never be the same.
..and I am glad.

My Magick is better than yours!


Right….so Young Lady White Magician keeps sending messages to my Facebook persona with the tenacity of a little child who has a secret to tell.
“I practice Magick” She confides.
“Oh”, I retort….”
“White Magick, not black Magick”, she responds.

Little does she know that this is dead giveaway number one that she has not been practising for long. Magick, being a tool, cannot be good or bad. It just is. Your use of it is the “good / bad” issue. Like using a knife to cut the food to feed your family, or using same knife to kill a person.

“I am in a lodge” she confides again.

Dead giveaway number two. Lodge members are not supposed to divulge that they are lodge members. Only newly recruited neophytes with egos all out of wack will let loose such information.

At this point I feign surprise that there are still lodges here. But then my ego gets the better of me as her whole conversational direction screams that somehow she things she is better than others in the group.

So like the mischevious devil that I am, I respond “Perhaps then, you could give me more information on the “Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram?”

The silence that is there for a while is punctuated by the blipping cursor on the chat screen.

“Heavy stuff there.” She answers. “Don’t you have any books to read about it?”

“Been there done that.” I respond…. “ Really though, have they began any classes on the local plant associations?”

“Oh, we don’t do that.” She replies “ Our magick is much higher than that.”

Dead giveaway number three. Lodges teach magick slowly, grade run from 0=0 then proceed slowly to 1=9, 2=8, and continue. No one has ever reached the end. At some point the instruction switches from the psychopomp rituals that the neophytes experience, to real magick which involves learning associations from Crowley’s Liber 777, and combining it which Enochian Magick, which I was never partial too. This she obviously did not know.
There was more to the conversation, but lets leave it here.

I logged off and left it at that. One of the things they warn you about when you begin Magick is exactly what Young Lady White Witch is experiencing. The Ego Trip. The “I am better than you because I practice Magick and you don’t know what you are doing” behaviour.

Ms. YLWW better check her swelling ego, or she will never go from Neophyte to Zelator level, at least not if the Lodge Master are even worth their 5=5 grades.

Blessed Be Guys, Blessed Be.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Crafting a BOS







These Books of Shadows are absolutely beautiful. I would rather love one for myself. I was checking around the craft stores the other day for little trinkets that would fit into a Book of Shadows for me. I loved the Green and Blue metallic Leatherette at Samaroo's, and began to envision an embossed metallic Dragon on my cover. Haven't bought it yet.

It got me thinking? How come our Carnival crafts have not trickled down into our everyday creativity. I mean, enough with the bikini and beads, but can we flourish
our homes, everyday things with the same creativity that you find at Carnival.

Why do we box in everything? ... Carnival should be this! Homes should be this! People should behave like this! Worship like this!
Maybe one night I shall drag my Altar and Candles into the little park in our neighbourhood, light a witchy bonfire and shock the be-bumbums out of the neighbours........
Who will probably call the police.... or leave a little note on my gate about worshipping eveil spirits. I know for sure that all the Jehovah Witnesses will find themselves at my door!
He he he..... definately will put the pentacle on the front door now..... "Come get me my pretties!"